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Name: William
Country: Malaysia
Metro: Kuala Lumpur
Birthday: 9/28/1973
Gender: Male
Interests: Interesting things I guess :-P
Expertise: It would depend purely on the given situation or occassion.
Occupation: Sales
Industry: Internet Management Systems
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Member Since:
2/13/2003
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| I'm not Okay (and God knows I'm in denial)
Two days ago, I was at a Youth Camp at Jeram Besu, Raub, Pahang. We were on the bus enroute to KL on MONDAY noon, and thankfully, most campers slept the entire way, leaving me with about two hours by myself to think and pray. This quiet time was awesome....and rough (as the roads were kinda bouncy). I had worried about getting sleepy, but I was so engrossed in prayer and worship and conviction and a whole lot of emotions that I was wide awake!
I won’t bore you with the details and everything I said to God and everything He said to me. But I do want to share my main revelation. For the last couple of years, I’ve been holding onto my emotions tightly, keeping it all reined in and calling it “faith.” When things went wrong or differently than I’d expected or planned, I said, “It’s okay. God’s in control. I know it will turn out okay. I have faith.”
But it turns that even though I do have faith in God’s provision and His plan, I’ve still been hurt by some things. Actually, “hurt” doesn’t even cover it. Honestly, I’ve been devastated. Over and over, my world has been rocked with....
- The news of close friends diagnosed with cancer.
- The news of close friends ended up in hospital for some health matters.
- The separation of two different couples who are my friends.
- Getting 'mugged' unexpectedly.
- Several of my closest friends moving away (from church).
- Being laid off from my previous job.
That’s a lot of stuff, right? And it seems that dealing with it plain-ol'-william-style hasn’t worked for me. (According to Ted on How I Met Your Mother, Buckeyes “push down the pain and if the pain starts to come up again, we push more pain down on top of it. Why confront something when you can avoid it?”)
So, I admitted – to God and to myself – that I can’t handle it all. That I haven’t dealt with this stuff. That I don’t know how to deal with it. I don’t know how to be okay. I don’t know. How. To be. Okay.
And one of the songs that was ringing in my head as I was sobbing this all out was Casting Crown’s East to West. That song has spoken to me before, but that moment, the line that pierced my heart and my stubborn pride was, “I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me.” He’s been holding on to me – even when I convinced myself that I was fine, that I didn’t need anyone, and that I was okay.
But I wasn’t. And I’m not. I’m not okay, but He’s holding on to me.
So, today, I’m thankful that God rocks my world, because I know that’s one way He works in my life. And I’m thankful that I don’t have to be okay, because He’s holding on to me. Has God rocked your world lately?
How do you deal with your emotions after a difficult event? Have you ever convinced yourself and others that you were okay when you actually weren't? | | |
| Reminiscence on CAMP MOTIVATION @ Jeram Besu
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| Are u DRUNK?
Did you know that when a person who is drunk falls into deep water, they tend to swim downward because of the disorientation?
Well, we have a bad habit of putting ourselves in similar situations.
We get drunk on our flashy culture with all our bells and whistles.
Suddenly we're to tired to read the word.
We're to broke to give anything to anyone.
The whole world, in our narrow perspective, centers on our own situation.
We're drunk, and we're spiritually drowning.
When in that situation, unfortunately, we usually don't snap out of it, do we? No. We swim downward. We wrap ourselves up in worldly distractions like a warm blanket. We seek comfort in them.
And, all the while, we find ourselves immersed so deep that there's hardly any light left.
Life suddenly sucks, and you saw it coming the whole time. How sad.
That's the point when I can't stand it anymore. I don't want this world. I'm not at home here. Even though I'm here, I don't intend on falling in love with the world. This place is not for me. All it does is hold me back. There are times I find it so hard to push. There are times when I swim downward. I drank of the world and got drunk. Sometimes it's hard to detect that bitter taste that I hate so much. That, I don't understand. Nonetheless, it happens to all of us.
My home is in heaven. Perhaps I should start living like it.
 
What's consuming all of your attention right now?
How do you keep yourself from getting too caught up in worldly things? | | |
| Pride: Are You Turning Down God?
Have you ever been in a situation where you have to do something that you are unfamiliar with, or work with a program that you don't know, and someone who does know offers to assist you?
I bet that 9 out of 10 times you turn them down. I never want to be a burden on anyone else. I always think, "I can do it on my own, eventually. I don't need anyone's help." Pride keeps me from asking for help, even when others are willing. Pride also usually ends up leaving me with more work to do and requires more time to get everything done.
Now think about it this way: God is the expert.
We do a pretty poor job at "life" (if we are completely honest with ourselves). God is the only one who DOES know how to do "life", and He frequently asks us "Do you want My help? I just want to help you."
Yet, how often do we push God away and say, "I can do it on my own." How foolish and prideful we are sometimes. If God cares enough about us to offer to help then He obviously doesn't want us to fail. Unfortunately when we reject His help He has to watch us do just that.
We can't do life without God, it's impossible. Pride just separates us from God and therefore from true success and triumph in life. How much sweeter would it be to just let God drive and let Him work through us?
Have you been trying to make it without God's help?
How is that going for you?
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